Difficult for understand

September 20, 2009. Been exactly 9 months. 9 long months, but I still think about him. Not a day without thinking about Zhi. It's a time bomb, too drawn-out depression ... it kills and brings to mind. Why can not I be happy? While I was ... almost all summer, I enjoy life. I was at Seliger, was in St. Petersburg. I realized my dream. It was with Denisov. She slept with Denisov. I feel that the proposals are becoming shorter and shorter. He is still with her, loved her. Thus, it was generally unnecessary proposal. Remarkable Denisov, simply a miracle and a beautiful city. The city, which wants not only to live, it wants to grow old and die. And then suddenly was Turkey and Ur), it was a wonderful trip, the sea of whiskey and zero sex ... I want to go there again .. I pray God be there in a week and a half. I am still one. I walk with Chalym, drink with Slavik, denounced Moskvin, sleep with Оleg, vizhus 5 minutes with Roma ... not much for me one?