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MY FAVOURITE MOUSE

I am always looking for an excuse to him. Not currently. I'm sorry for all the quarrel was only me. Why? Why I did not think it is not right? For me it was perfect. To me, he was sent over. It's stupid, but I thought for a long time. When it ended? When I started to love yourself? I do not remember. As if something had cracked, and all our relations have gone another way, took a new course, developed a new route. Since then I have always viewed with suspicion for all that he said. Perhaps it was not right, but in another way has failed. I tried to convince himself, to convince myself and him that everything is perfect, could not.

LAST SPRING

This year she deceived me. Could she have forgotten the date when you want to come? Maybe the door was wrong? Maybe something hurt? I decided to throw me in the worst possible moment. It is the latter, in what I believed. How? Obviously lying is not only men. And if so, what then believe? Who? Today, she burst into my life so fast that it tore the door off its hinges. Very unexpected. Came not one. Let an unexpected guest, but it was not an unpleasant visit. And I was just too easy to let people out of their lives. All, except one. Timur Oleg, now more and Bozhok. If people are not important, then they leave. Last time I drive out of their own, let them, I forget, I can not think of a precise definition. So you can not do, but to be with those who can not hear or understand, I do not want. Why perform all my whim, or do I only think? Even in the most complicated relationship we remember only the good. Perhaps, I thought of doing that, but in fact all was not so? Surprisingly, I no longer take paragraphs. Maybe spring really come? I feel that, as Oksana, was afraid of relationships, one can not be, but I'm afraid to meet. She came anyway, I'm sure she's here. She was in my heart. I do not want to think that only met, but with it very easily. With him pleasure to say, he is nice. Besides his 22 and there is no madness in their work. I just think the time has come. Stop torturing yourself! Time to throw off the mourning clothes and just enjoy her arrival. Good mood for the first time in a long time, can he really get me out of depression? Although I myself try to do it, although it would be much easier ... ....

Difficult for understand

September 20, 2009. Been exactly 9 months. 9 long months, but I still think about him. Not a day without thinking about Zhi. It's a time bomb, too drawn-out depression ... it kills and brings to mind. Why can not I be happy? While I was ... almost all summer, I enjoy life. I was at Seliger, was in St. Petersburg. I realized my dream. It was with Denisov. She slept with Denisov. I feel that the proposals are becoming shorter and shorter. He is still with her, loved her. Thus, it was generally unnecessary proposal. Remarkable Denisov, simply a miracle and a beautiful city. The city, which wants not only to live, it wants to grow old and die. And then suddenly was Turkey and Ur), it was a wonderful trip, the sea of whiskey and zero sex ... I want to go there again .. I pray God be there in a week and a half. I am still one. I walk with Chalym, drink with Slavik, denounced Moskvin, sleep with Оleg, vizhus 5 minutes with Roma ... not much for me one?

new paragraph ...

New paragraph. Passage without him. As in life, which is now live. There is no place to him, no place to us, no place for the old feelings and dreams. Now here is just me. And now when I decide how and with whom to live. I like Kerry from a favorite series, simply meet with young people, without obligation, who are now in general need a serious relationship? Who needs love? People stopped to see the good in each other. Why do it if you only have sex? Maybe you should not look for a prince, but just a few years to get married and do not fool yourself and others head light novels? Moreover, why should I love, if I want to travel? Discover the world? Together do it much more difficult. Moreover, now there is no one person whom I could call the applicant for the role of her boyfriend. I am writing these lines, but in my head pulsates name Bozhok. Or maybe he is just someone who I really need? Continuous flow of thoughts into a written sheet of paper. And there's Musik Musik ... or not. For 4 years I was never able to determine and define the place for him in my life. Who is it for me? Friend? Guy? Rather, it is not, and not another. Strange state. Perhaps it's not easy to be between these two definitions. In his place I would have killed me, or forgotten forever and would find myself a normal girl, no pens and such a large cockroaches in my head. God, how many questions on a single page. This letter is an abnormal person to space, a large, vast territory that I'm ...

О нем...Обо мне...

About him ... About me ...
In the 21 century, people tend to find in the urban jungle close-minded individual. Some teach, others are looking for years. But what I seek? I do not understand. Someone wants relations, some sex for one night. What do I want? Do I want to do something? After a relationship with Ji, I have not broken, do not know how to express this feeling, probably, I'm at a loss. I'm not a bad one, not lonely, not lonely. I am happy being in the company itself. And, I think I already used to being alone, but sometimes memories of a wave breaks on the head, as an unexpected tsunami, and destroying the fragile peace "WITHOUT MRS", which I'm trying to build. I do not rush to everybody, because that one. Do not sleep with just anybody. Do not meet with anyone. Why is the part that looks so strange? Why did the girl in the third millennium can not afford to be called no, not alone, free. Well wake up with a beloved man every day, but without him waking up is not worse. In recent years I had bad luck with a passion, a representative of the Caucasus, or just a child, well, the last ... probably the first one I really love ... Zhi, although he lived in Moscow, this does not prevent us from loving each other. Maybe this is the ideal relationship? Live in different cities, to see once a month and not strain to each other with their presence? Is not the ultimate dream? I can not get bored and have time to miss the point that at the time of abuse and scandal remains. You are exclusively engaged with each other. I now more than anything want to see Denisov. This is a long-standing desire, which only increases with time. We communicate so long ago, so much about each other know ... he's the best vegetable, which I have ever met. There is Bozhok, it is good. We even live in one city, why even? Because in recent years is very rare that a man who liked living in Krasnodar. I do not understand what I want from life. But before such a question does not arise. Previously - this is when I was with Ji. It was not met, because officially meet, as it turned out after 5 months, he never offered to me. I'll probably hysterical, because it has passed almost 3 months since we parted, and I still think about it. I want to turn off in the head responsible for the memories of Zhi. But does not work. I think from my experience you can write a novel ... a very snotty, who would read the girls under 17 and Old ladies over 65 ... but can simply refer to a psychologist, although in my case will only therapist, or even a psychiatrist ...